section from a story i just finished

Raven made it back to the home and up to her room just in time for the break down.

   She lay on her bed, huddled into a fetal position. Hugging her legs to her face, Raven let out cry after shrill cry. Ravens body started to convulse, shaking violently as if she were lying on a live wire. Suddenly, in a flurry of motion Raven thrust out her hands, gripping the bed frame and ripping up the blanket. She arched her back and screamed out as if someone was driving a red hot metal spike into her core. Violently Raven threw herself against the bed again, trying so hard to slip into it forever.

   Raven scurried to the end of her bed and threw up, and then it was over.

   She lay on her bed for a while, breathing, thinking, focusing. She needed it to stop, to cease forever so she could live and stop this worrying. She lay on her bed until she fell asleep, still in her tear soaked clothes.

i have been planning to do this for a while but havent gotten around to it.

  Do you know what its like to have your heart ripped out of you? You dont do you? Its a pain, the pain that feels like tiny needles stabbing your very soul.  Its the pain that comes from love, from life, and from loss. Its the kind of pain that you feel when you're being forced to watch the one you used to love live on day to day in someone elses arms. The kind of pain  you feel when you try to forget but realize you cant. Its when you realize you can not and will not forget all the good times, all the great moments, and all the beautiful memories. The kind of pain you feel when you beg yourself to stop caring but you still cant. Its the pain you feel when you know you ahve moved on but still remember what could have been. And its the pain you feel when you know the one who left has no idea how you feel. -tuck

i need your help.

I need something to write. Any ideas? -tuck